"For you created her inmost being;
You knit her together in my womb.
I praise you because she is fearfully and wonderfully made;
Your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
Her frame was not hidden from you
when she was made in the secret place,
when she was woven together in the depths of the earth.
Your eyes saw her unformed body;
all the days ordained for her were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
How precious to us are your thoughts, God!"
- Psalm 139:13-17
Praise the Lord! These verses truly speaks of a beautiful and wonderful creation. These verses have been dancing and singing right in my eyes and heart since we know of her existence in my 2nd month of pregnancy.
2 weeks before Good Friday 2017, as I came out of the toilet, Hubby mentioned that the Lord put in his heart that I will be pregnant and we would least expect it. We did not quite understood what that meant and we put that aside.
Then on 15th Apr 2017, 1 day after Good Friday, after our usual morning Family Devotion, I went into the kitchen to prepare breakfast. As I appeared at the kitchen entrance, Hubby suddenly mentioned that he felt the Holy Spirit convicted him that I am pregnant. It will be a girl and her name will be related to PEACE and GENTLENESS. I went to check on the pregnancy kit. It was positive but not a clear line. Then I told Hubby that I will check again the next day. Perhaps, I drank too much water. The same positive result was displayed. Indeed, I had least expected it.
And 8 months after that, on 6th Dec 2017, we finally met J2. She is God's wonderful and beautiful creation and gift.
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| Our newest addition in the family |
God, our awesome creator, already knows and knead her in my womb, before hubby and I, who are her parents even know of her existence.
God's eyes saw her unformed body and HE even mentioned her gender and even specify what her name will be. Hallelujah! She is indeed fearfully and wonderfully made. I am in awe...
And when I was pushing during my labour, for almost 30 minutes, I was running out of strength and I prayed, "Father God, I need your strength. Helped me pushed." And after that, God just worked and 15 minutes later, I successfully pushed baby out. What a labour!
How amazing! How awesome was that!
Today is the last day of 2017. Looking back, 2017 had been a year of Renewed Hope. Renewed Hope not just having a new addition in our family but Renewed Hope in Hubby's and my spiritual walk with God.
Following the closure of the miscarriage in end 2016 which was exactly a year ago, I had decided to leave everything to God, just focus on J and put baby planning aside. After all, just before the miscarriage episode, I had just attended the Son-Rise Program® Startup. I have decided I should focus on working on the Home Therapy with J. For baby planning, I had told God I will just leave it to HIS timing. I will not do any baby planning. I put my Ovulation kit aside.
Today is the last day of 2017. Looking back, 2017 had been a year of Renewed Hope. Renewed Hope not just having a new addition in our family but Renewed Hope in Hubby's and my spiritual walk with God.
Following the closure of the miscarriage in end 2016 which was exactly a year ago, I had decided to leave everything to God, just focus on J and put baby planning aside. After all, just before the miscarriage episode, I had just attended the Son-Rise Program® Startup. I have decided I should focus on working on the Home Therapy with J. For baby planning, I had told God I will just leave it to HIS timing. I will not do any baby planning. I put my Ovulation kit aside.
In January 2017, God spoke and HE asked to attend Kingdom Invasion 2017 (KI 2017). I have never attended such conference even though there will be people from my church who will attend each year. It was a 4 days conference. Hubby has to take leave to look after J while I attended. Well, Hubby agreed! (He has to because I said God asked me to attend).
When I was attending KI 2017, I found a calling. God showed me all that has happened over the past 2 years - J's condition, my parenting journey with J, purpose in attending Son-Rise Program Startup, miscarriage, etc. The part when I asked God if I should attend the Son-Rise Program® Startup and he said "Go", I thought it was meant only to help me change my perspective of things, to be empowered and be equipped in helping J, but it was more than that, it was one of the plans that God has. Through KI 2017, God revealed HIS purpose and plans for me. The best part was God had told Hubby HIS plans on another occasion months before but Hubby did not reveal to me and then, God told me during KI 2017 and when we shared with each other, we were amazed. There is a purpose to every of God's plans.
And then, I was convicted to do 1 month of prayer and fasting. It was my first time doing 1 month. During the fasting, more of God's plans were revealed.
And then, I fell pregnant, without expecting it.
And then, Hubby was convicted to go on Sri Lanka mission trip. I remembered few years back before we have any children, I asked him if we should go on a mission trip. He gave me a plain "No way will I go" sort of answer.
It is amazing how God really works and convicted man's heart.
I remembered in my closure to the miscarriage, I prayed this prayer:
"God, hold my hand, I want to trust you and partner with you, in my journey with J, in my marriage, in my walk with you, in everything I do, everything in 2017. Restore me, restore my health. Thank you God. In Jesus Name, AMEN..."
Indeed, HE never fails us. HE is faithful. HE restores. There is a purpose to all that had happened - To prepare for the future, for HIS glory. Hallelujah! Praise the Lord! Praise be to God!
